||[May. 12th, 2008|06:09 pm]
|||||Sugizo - Missing||]|
I have been busy.
-I have managed to play the field well enough to keep my band from breaking up, and we've begun writing for the next record. There's still a ton of personal issues to work out, but in addition to practices we've been writing four hours every sunday.... and it is sounding GOOD.
-Moving in with my girlfriend Saskia at the end of the summer. Her very conservative and very black army sergeant father got home from Iraq last week, and I met him on Friday. He was less than pleased, but at least I came out alive. I have always been scared to-fucking-death about commitment, but this girl is really special and i'm not going to fuck this up.
-I want to finish school. NOW. We've got touring commitment from august to october, and until then we're writing. It looks like i'm going to have to wait until spring, but I want that economics degree. I don't have any fantasy about supporting myself with music (especially when I play some of the most underground music around) so i'm going to need it, but it's moe than that.
No matter how well I do or how things turn out for my band, I always feel like i'm doing so much less than i'm capable of. I want this degree so I can go back to every punk friend of mine the past six or seven years, everyone that said I acted like I was better than everyone and didn't have anything to back it up with, and tell them to go fuck themselves. That i'm nothing like them, and I did something. I got out of the hood, I didn't sit around drunk all day, and I only let positive things influence me.
I'm turning twenty-two this year, it's time to get it together.
(this would be the girlfriend)